Moments of joy...

There is an old saying that goes like this: "Do not leave for tomorrow, what you can do today." I try to take that to heart EVERY DAY of my life. And not just in the sense of doing things that you should do but also doing things that you can do. And if you hold true to this, the times that you feel like you desperately need life to slow down will come around more and more often. When you feel as if you want everything to stand still for a while. You want to study and inspect every tiny detail. You want to drink it in, you want to absorb every second. I am there! I feel like my baby is just magically changing a little bit every day. I watch, afraid that I am going to miss something. I drink in the way she looks and the way she smells; the way she giggles when I tickle her, and the way she soberly studies me as I study her. I want her to stay little for ever, and yet...she grows.

I have been so relaxed with no school to do this week; nothing exists except my girl, her daddy, and me. We cuddle in bed in the morning and fall asleep on the couch together in the evening. It is nice to have a break. 

It is so amazing to me when I am reminded of how totally in love I am with these two beautiful people that God gave me. There is no better feeling than to know you are whole; always growing and stretching, but always complete.

"And so my prayer is that your story will have involved some leaving and some coming home, some summer and some winter, some roses blooming out like children in a play. My hope is your story will be about changing, about getting something beautiful born inside of you, about learning to love a woman or a man, about learning to love a child, about moving yourself around water, around mountains, around friends, about learning to love others more than we love ourselves, about learning oneness as a way of understanding God. We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and the resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it?" 

-Donald Miller