There are always times in your life when things just seem to stand still; when you can spare a second, and you can look back at your past. You see two things. You see all of the things you wish you could have done differently, the things that you are disappointed in and saddened by. And then you see all of the things that you are immeasurably happy with, the things that keep you going when your light is growing dim. I have just successfully finished, and filed away another of those awesome I'm-so-happy-with-myself moments. I am done with school for the summer! There are no words to describe how ready I am to focus solely on my little family and not on school. I feel like the past few months have gotten away from me a little bit. There have been days that I wanted to let it all go and just lay on the floor and play with my little traveler for hours. And there are days that I have done just that. But there are also days that she was the perfect little baby and entertained herself almost all day long (except for a few breaks for nursing and naps of course!) while I studied for a test or wrote a paper. God totally knew what he was doing when he sent us this little able-to-entertain-herself baby that would work perfectly with a mommy that needs to get a few (extra) things done!
Gone (at least for the summer) are the days of never ending school assignments. Now, for the days of snuggles with my girl and lukewarm baths in the afternoon.
And summertime, and grass, and blue sky with white clouds.
I totally adore baby swings with my baby in them. And I like watching the little girl with my big man. And thanking God for every day that I have with them.
I am intensely excited for this summer. One word of advice: Power on, I say. There is a time and a season for everything; now is the time to POWER ON. You can do it. When I look into my little girls face I always feel like the most powerful person in the world.
I think that is what gives a lot of women their assertiveness. There is just something about being able to give life to another human being that lends strength, makes us whole and thus creates power. There is just something about that little girl and the way that she looks at me that makes me feel vulnerable and at the same time as if I could conquer the highest kingdom.
Oh, and – Attention milestones: be ready for a crawler!
I had a wonderful Mother’s Day. We celebrated, just my little family! My baby and I had to have matching red piggies...
Hope you enjoy your week! We all know she and I will :)
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Do you dream, that the world will know your name
So tell me your name
Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive
To know I'm alive
Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon
Do you believe, in the day that you were born
Tell me do you believe?
Do you know, that everyday's the first of the rest of your life
Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon
This is to one last day in the shadows
And to know a brother's love
This is to New York City angels
And the rivers of our blood
This is to all of us, to all of us
Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon
You can tell me all your thoughts, about the stars that fill polluted skies
And show me where you run to, when no one's left to take your side
But don't tell me where the road ends, cause I just don't wanna know, No I don't wanna know
Don't tell me if I'm dying
Don't tell me if I'm dying
Don't tell me if I'm dying
- Thriving Ivory, Angels on the Moon
